Well, you might know that colic is actually not a diagnosis, just a word for "there is something wrong with your baby and we don't really know what." It turns out that what is wrong with our baby is a severe lactose intolerance. First I cut out all the milk and milk products such as cheese, yoghurts and creme. No change. So I had to start reading the labels for hidden milk. No change. As a last try I got a list of things that have a relation to milk, which led to a temporary improvement and then a horrible blow out of symptoms. We have been on a special formula ever since and boy, I have an angel baby now! No more screaming in pain, no more holding when he is sleeping and way more sleep for momma. Which is why I came to be writing now - Adam is happily swinging in his swing fast asleep and if today is like the last two days, he will be sleeping till 1pm. Glorious :)
As far as I am concerned, I am feeling a bit down because of the whole breastfeeding thing. I had a very hard time getting used to it, hurt quite a lot and took forever to get the milk in. I had several infections, several days of fever as my supply was adjusting and pumping to build a supply for when I go back to work has been a challenge because it turns out I don't pump well at all. However, I built a stash of 350 oz to date, got to the point where my supply regulated and yet Adam will be a formula baby. I don't think that anyone who has not experienced this can understand how frustrating this really is. I was for sure not attached to breastfeeding, but the idea of Adam not getting the very best is breaking my heart. But I've got to do what's best for him. Aaah, the joys of parenthood.
